For those of you reading that don’t know me too well, I am currently having a break from education and who knows if I’ll ever go back! I went to Uni last year and absolutely loved it, but I realised I wasn’t too sure what I wanted to go into.
The amount of time I have spent trying to work out what I want to be is crazy. I’ve brainstormed ideas, I’ve looked at course after course at different universities, but there isn’t just one individual thing that appeals to me – in fact, there any many things that appeal to me.
First of all, this question of ‘what do I want to be?’ insinuates that there is only one thing that you can do in life. This idea is where the pressure came from for me. I was thinking to myself ‘how the heck am I supposed to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life at this age?’.
So I soon started to challenge the preconceptions that I once had. I thought to myself, ‘What are all of the things I want to try in life?’ and as soon as I asked this, I had a million answers (…okay maybe not a million, but you catch my drift). I want to travel, I want to start acting classes, I want to start my own blog, I want to get myself into a good fitness routine, I want to eat at as many different restaurants as I can, I want to learn about as many different animals as I can, along with a list of other things. So actually, I do have an answer!
I once used to answer this question with a feeling of embarrassment and in an almost negative tone – ‘well actually I don’t know what I’m doing with my life, I don’t know what I want to be’. But this is complete nonsense! The reason I answered it this way was because of the way it is asked – as if there is only one thing made for me to do. When in fact, if we change the question to ‘What things do you want to do in life?’ then there are plenty of answers to give!
So next time someone asks me what I want to be, I shall state that actually I don’t know just one thing I want to be, I know lots of things that I want to do and achieve. And in fact the simple answer to the question of what I want to be, is to be happy. For me, happiness can be achieved by doing all of the things that are on my list.
I now don’t put pressure on myself to decide my one calling in life, instead I am doing my very best to try all of the things that I’ve ever wanted to try, and I will continue to broaden my horizons. I may not know that one thing I want to do, but for now, I’m happy being a part time working, drama loving, blog writing, animal loving 20 year old girl. I have a lot to give – we all do. So chase all of your dreams, and do whatever makes you happy because I think ultimately, that’s what we all want to be in life – so why not make that happen?
Love always, Grace x
P.S. John Green did a youtube video touching on this topic and it’s absolutely fab. For anyone interested, check it out here x